Yet Another Speaker..

After the Mumbai terror attacks,I refused to blog.I don't know why but I just didn't want to blog.Maybe because I was too depressed to express my traumatized feelings or maybe I was too tired reading people's blogs on the topic.I watched this show called "In Memory" on NDTV today.It was a show in tribute to the great martyrs who gave up their lives to secure the victims' lives.I cried.Who wouldn't?Anyone in their right minds,who has a heart will cry seeing all that.Thats all we can do.Cry.Give some condolence,feel bad for a while,and then slowly,we'll forget.Forget whatever happened,and move on as if nothing happened,because most of us have been fortunate enough to not be one of the victims,and to not have lost our near and dear ones.Initially,the attack shocks us,then we feel sad for the people who lost their lives,have discussion with friends,curse our nation's improbity and its leaders,write blogs expressing our anguish.But then what?How many of us have been able to do as much as we have talked on the very subject "our nation" and "terrorism".All we can do is hope that someone will come and help to curb garbage like this.Even I haven't done anything yet.Write now even I am just typing stuff which had been burried deep in my mind for days,and now is flowing out through my fingers.

I would call the NGOs and the cops who fought against the terrorists real human beings or real Indians.Many of us are just here to talk and discuss and debate.The TV reporter Vikram Chandra said something on the show today for which I wanted to start clapping.He said "We don't provide proper equipment to the NGOs,we don't encourage them,we totally ignore the fact that they are payed far less than many other people in this country.And now when they die,we gather here pay tribute to them."How true.It was like he was speaking my mind or many other people's minds.But how long are we going to only think and talk?We are a great nation-agreed.We have amazing unity-agreed.We are all rueful when it comes to terrorism-agreed.But how much is unity going to help us?and how much is thinking alike going to help?I am not going to talk about the politicians.I am too pissed for that.Our curses will not reach them,even if they do,they won't change,and having young and sensible politicians is like eons away.Maybe that can only happen if young minds like our's get stirred and we wake up and try and do something.I know I am throwing all those Rang de Basanti type dialogues,but you know,those dialogues were good!

The attacks in Mumbai were probably one of the most malignant attacks ever witnessed by the country.I am sure people will not forget this for a long time,but I have this hunch that gradually they will.But I have promised myself I won't.

I Solemnly Swear...

I remember the first time when I heard the "f" word,I was in my 5th grade.The only thing I knew about it was that it was spelt as "f-u-c-k" and that it was supposedly a VERY bad word and should not be used or said out loud.But as it is,I was a very curious person back then too;).I didn't stop trying to learn the meaning of the word.I asked all my friends,and asked them to find out from their friends,who,if they didn't know,can ask their's and so on.I even asked my mom,and she said only grown ups can use it.Finally I got to know from a friend that using the word meant that you wanted to fight with your friend.And that day indeed,I did fight with a friend of mine and cried all day.So I promised to God,that I will never even try to use it again.After I got to know the actual meaning,you can guess how much I must have laughed!

But to be honest,I didn't use the word even once till I was 14,and that only happened after a girl in my school used it on me.She said "fuck off!" very smoothly and blankly on my face.I was stunned.I hated her for saying that to me.But nonethless,I used the word sometimes.

Then came what I called "The Bitch Age".Almost everybody used that word.But I didn't.Because I was told only dirty girls,who had boyfriends used it.(damn!I was funny!)So,all my early teens went on and I learnt two swear words in english.."fuck" and "bitch".

In Hyderabad,the place where I live,I learnt many new swears.You have an abundance of swear words that you probably haven't even heard."Maakikirkiri" is the most famous one out here.There are many other,but I might be judged at if I used them here.They mean really bad!hehe.They are super funny anyway!I laugh everytime I hear them.Our college bus driver uses them on every other vehicle driver on the road.I haven't heard anybody use them like he does!Typical Hyderbadi swear words.Everywhere I go someone or the other uses them.Even I do,but mine are a mixture of hindi,hyderabadi hindi and english.

Sometimes I am happy I know so many swear words,because I can get really abusive when I am pissed,and these words come very handy.I come up with new, self-invented,innovative abuses,just for the person who was the reason behind my annoyance.I can keep absuing and swearing all day.I feel so good when I abuse and let out all the frustration.It feels as if you have been holding a whole lot of junk in your tummy and have finally puked!

Living and Not Reading?! Pity..

Sometimes I wonder how it would be if there was a school where you didn't have to study for tests,internals,externals,vivas,to impress professors,tutors,your crushes..(phew!).Well that would be like a dream come true for me.I hate exams!Iam sure nobody likes them,leaving a few hard core nerds.But as a contrary,I can't imagine my life without books and reading.Iam not talking exclusively about subject books,but other kind of books.Books which contain fiction,non-fiction,drama,comedy,tragedy,biographies,autobiographies,fantasy,philosophy,and so on.

I love to read.And I can read a LOT!I have been fascinated by story books and fairy tales ever since I was a toddler, I was told.As a school kid,I used to badger my parents to buy me all sorts of books.Everywhere I went,I would only search for interesting books that I could read.I would read in the car,in the school bus,in the classroom,and every other corner where I could possibly find a comfortable place to sit and an just read.Library period in school used to be my favourite back then.When I was around ten years old,I started getting bored of Enid Blyton and other fairy tales.I started reading R.L.Stine's Goosebumps.Everybody in my class would fret his books,saying that his stories were scary.I found them amusing an fun to read.A few years later,in my early teens, I started reading R.L.Stine's Fear Street,then Franscine Pascal's Sweet Valley Junior,High and University.How much I enjoyed them!Sometimes I would ignore homework and continue reading these books.Not that my teachers wouldn't shout at me..they used to give me impositions!

I remember how much everybody was crazy about Harry Potter when I was in my 7th grade.I had always wanted to read them,but never got a chance to then.Later,in my 8th grade,my mother's friend lent me the first four books of Harry Potter.I read all of them in ten days.I was literally glued to them.I loved the books so much that I would wake up early in the mornings sometimes and read.This was when I started developing short sight.My mom had to shut the book in my hand and turn of the lights to tell me to bed.I would imagine myself as Harry Potter,or some other character from the book.I would sit and wish that Hogwarts existed,and that someone like Hagrid come and take me there.Post Harry Potter,I started reading Sydney Sheldon,and then James Hadley Chase,John Grisham,Robin Cook,Jeffrey Archer,and these days I am reading Paulo Coelho,Khaled Hosseini,Erich Segal and other such authors and many autobiographies,and how-to-live-life kind of inspiring books.

Yesterday,my friend asked me to send her an e-book of my choice(she doesn't read much).I did,and when I asked her today if she had started reading it,she told me that she had read just one page since yesterday!One page only.I wasn't really surprised because not many of my friends read.Some don't even bother to know what books are all about.I know different people have different interests,opinions and tastes and I don't have anythin against the non-readers.I agree with them too.But I pity people who don't read.I feel they are missing somethimg very deviceful and prolific in their lives.I mean how can people not read something beyond the first page.I don't know how they wouldn't want to know what the second page contains.Some don't even try to read.It remains a mystery to me,me being a total book worm which I presume you must have already concluded reading so much of my blog(if you have come this far into reading it;))Books can change you,atleast they have changed me.Made me a better person,given me a lot of knowledge about things I was absolutely unaware of.They brought a complete change in the way I percieved things,civilized my english speaking skills to a large extent,and have kept me entertained to date.I might be sounding very pre-determined and judgemental,but no I don't intend to sound like that.Maybe its just my love for reading and pity for thse who don't;)

"Terror-easy-m" in India

Last night i watched this movie called Parzania.Its about a Parsi family,in which a ten year old kid named Parzan goes missing during the Gujarat riots of february 28th,2002.Its all about how his parents,Shehnaz and Cyrus(Sarika and Naseeruddin shah respectively) try to find their missing son,all in vain.

It all begins when the hindu community in Gujarat decides to attack the non-hindus in their state,as they think its an insult to live in the presence of someone who doesn't belong to their community and religion,and the muslims had also killed many hindus in the past being a very obvious reason for their revenge(pathetic minds I say).Matters worsen,when the Hindus plan a surprise attack on the muslims.They build up a huge mob of 5000-10000 people,with swords in their hands,and kill everyone who seems to be a muslim.Old,young,no one was spared.They rape women of all ages,old,young and even little girls.Butcher men and stab children brutally,and burn a few on the roads.They don't even spare the unborn.They burn down houses and vehicles.The police do absolutely nothing.They neither try to stop the people attacking,nor help the people getting attacked.Most of them just stand there an laugh.When asked for help,they say,they havent been given orders to save them!how much more heartless can people get?More than a 1000 people were killed.From this devastating scenario,Shehnaz tries to escape along with her daughter Dilshad and son Parzan,who eventually gets lost in the crowd.To their sheer luck,they escape from the place,and hide in the fields until her husband Cyrus finds them.

Both parents,roam around the entire city in search of their only son.The police seem to be of absolutely no help at all.All they want is bucks.They grab a hansome amount of money from the people,and promise to help them,and then do NOTHING.In mental and physical grief,the family still doesnt give up.They try everything to find their son.

The high government officials hold a meeting with all the witnesses who escaped death on the depressing day.The police and the Hindus who attacked them,bribe all the witnesses to support the police when asked if they were of any help,and fake stories and tell them that the police were doing their best!Out of apprehension,they just do as asked.But a few people,go out fearless and tell the officials the truth.The guilty get arrested,but Parzan is still missing,and they never really find him.All that people do to help them is give them financial support.Can money bring back the dead and the lost?Don't people with minimum sense of humanity understand this?Or wait,is there no humanity in today's India?how..just how can poeple be so mindless,and heartless?

Seven blasts took place in Jaipur yesterday evening,and four more bombs were defused.More than 70 people died,and 200 injured.And you know what Sonia gandhi has to say?..."I condemn the Jaipur blasts!"...What a bitch!Has she ever even taken a step forward to curb terrorism?So many blasts have taken place.Local train blasts in mumbai,blasts at public malls in delhi,mosques in ajmer and hyderabad,and worse,blasts at eateries and children's park in Hyderabad!what has her congress government tried to do?And the bloody Italian female(I doubt if she is a female!) calls herself an Indian!What has she practically given or done for this country,except for giving speeches to innocent public?and mind you,and most of her speeches are absurd and obscure.Thats what politicians can do..give speeches,because as of today,nobody cares,because nothing has been done to them!Can you believe that people can actually get this selfish?They just sit on their chairs,strain an fatten their asses,and talk as if they own the world!We innocent people believe them blindly,when they promise us improvement and developement in the country,and give them our precious votes.Leave the terrorists, I think we should go and set all the good for nothing politicians on fire,and feed them to stray,infected dogs!

Finally this is all happening because of religious differences among people.If someone called "God" existed,then why is he lettin all this happen.If u love and belive in your religion,hasn't your god told you that killing is wrong?Is this what people should do in the name of humanity?kill innocent people brutally because they are not of a certain religion?Attack the people who are at fault.Why innocent men,women and children?How can someone have such destructive minds?Do they kill people out of their innocence of generalising that if one person is wrong,everyone is,or are they just so disgusting that they can murder anyone?I wonder if i can get all these answers(sigh).

Parzania and yesterday's events,depressed me.It made me realise that,in the present Indian scenario,with such cruel minds,and pathetic government,terrorism is probably the easiest thing that can happen to India,as there is technically no one to stop the terrorists from attacking.No wonder India has the record of maximum terrorist attacks.Iam sure terrorits just love our country..its so safe and easy for them,and makes them feel at home!!!